A Wasted Life? The Short Life of William Borden

"No Reserves. No Retreats. No Regrets." - notation in William Borden's Bible

"Do not put out the Spirit's fire." -- 1 Thessalonians 5:19

Quotations taken from Borden of Yale, by Mrs. Howard Taylor, Moody Press, Chicago

In 1904 William Borden graduated from a Chicago high school. As heir to the Borden family fortune, he was already wealthy. For his high school graduation present, his parents gave 16-year-old Borden a trip around the world. As the young man traveled through Asia, the Middle East, and Europe, he felt a growing burden for the world's hurting people. Finally, Bill Borden wrote home about his "desire to be a missionary."

One friend expressed disbelief that Bill was "throwing himself away as a missionary."
In response, Borden wrote two words in the back of his Bible: "No reserves."

Even though young Borden was wealthy, he arrived on the campus of Yale University in 1905 trying to look like just one more freshman. Very quickly, however, Borden's classmates noticed something unusual about him and it wasn't that he had lots of money. One of them wrote: "He came to college far ahead, spiritually, of any of us. He had already given his heart in full surrender to Christ and had really done it. We who were his classmates learned to lean on him and find in him a strength that was solid as a rock, just because of this settled purpose and consecration."

During his college years, Bill Borden made an entry in his personal journal that defined what his classmates were seeing in him. That entry said simply: "Say 'no' to self and 'yes' to Jesus every time."

Borden's first disappointment at Yale came when the university president spoke in a convocation about the students' need of "having a fixed purpose." After that speech, Borden wrote: "He neglected to say what our purpose should be, and where we should get the ability to persevere and the strength to resist temptations." Surveying the Yale faculty and much of the student body, Borden lamented what he saw as the end result of an empty, humanistic philosophy: moral weakness and sin-ruined lives.

During his first semester at Yale, Borden started something that would transform campus life. One of his friends described how it began: "It was well on in the first term when Bill and I began to pray together in the morning before breakfast. I cannot say positively whose suggestion it was, but I feel sure it must have originated with Bill. We had been meeting only a short time when a third student joined us and soon after a fourth. The time was spent in prayer after a brief reading of Scripture. Bill's handling of Scripture was helpful. . . . He would read to us from the Bible, show us something that God had promised and then proceed to claim the promise with assurance."

Borden's small morning prayer group gave birth to a movement that soon spread across the campus. By the end of his first year, 150 freshman were meeting weekly for Bible study and prayer. By the time Bill Borden was a senior, one thousand of Yale's 1,300 students were meeting in such groups.
Borden made it his habit to seek out the most "incorrigible" students and try to bring them to salvation. "In his sophomore year we organized Bible study groups and divided up the class of 300 or more, each man interested taking a certain number, so that all might, if possible, be reached. The names were gone over one by one, and the question asked, 'Who will take this person?' When it came to someone thought to be a hard proposition, there would be an ominous pause. Nobody wanted the responsibility. Then Bill's voice would be heard, 'Put him down to me.'"

Borden's outreach ministry was not confined to the Yale campus. He cared about widows and orphans and the disabled. He rescued drunks from the streets of New Haven. To try to rehabilitate them, he founded the Yale Hope Mission. One of Bill Borden's friends wrote that he "might often be found in the lower parts of the city at night, on the street, in a cheap lodging house or some restaurant to which he had taken a poor hungry fellow to feed him, seeking to lead men to Christ."

Borden's missionary call narrowed to the Muslim Kansu people in China. Once he fixed his eyes on that goal, Borden never wavered. He also challenged his classmates to consider missionary service. One of them said of him: "He certainly was one of the strongest characters I have ever known, and he put backbone into the rest of us at college. There was real iron in him, and I always felt he was of the stuff martyrs were made of, and heroic missionaries of more modern times."

Although he was a millionaire, Bill seemed to "realize always that he must be about his Father's business, and not wasting time in the pursuit of amusement." Although Borden refused to join a fraternity, "he did more with his classmates in his senior year than ever before." He presided over the huge student missionary conference held at Yale and served as president of the honor society Phi Beta Kappa.

Upon graduation from Yale, Borden turned down some high-paying job offers. In his Bible, he wrote two more words: "No retreats."

William Borden went on to do graduate work at Princeton Seminary in New Jersey. When he finished his studies at Princeton, he sailed for China. Because he was hoping to work with Muslims, he stopped first in Egypt to study Arabic. While there, he contracted spinal meningitis. Within a month, 25-year-old William Borden was dead.

When the news of William Whiting Borden's death was cabled back to the U.S., the story was carried by nearly every American newspaper. "A wave of sorrow went round the world . . . Borden not only gave (away) his wealth, but himself, in a way so joyous and natural that it (seemed) a privilege rather than a sacrifice" wrote Mary Taylor in her introduction to his biography.

Was Borden's untimely death a waste? Not in God's perspective. Prior to his death, Borden had written two more words in his Bible. Underneath the words "No reserves" and "No retreats," he had written: "No regrets."

Portions based on material in Daily Bread, December 31, 1988, and The Yale Standard, Fall 1970 edition.

Chronology / Dates
November 1, 1887 -- birth
1904 -- High school graduation (Chicago)
1905 -- Round-the-world trip
1909 -- Yale graduation
December 17, 1912 -- Sails for Egypt on way to China
April 9, 1913 -- Death in Egypt

Ukrainian Black Sea Summer Camp - 2015

Yes another famous GG Black Sea Camp! July 23-31. Located on the beautiful beaches of Karolino Buhaz 30 km from Odessa we will gather for a time in the Word, fellowship, edification, worship, challenge, growth and FUN! P. Christian Moore and others will be our guest speakers this year.

See our Facebook Event page for more information: https://www.facebook.com/events/801258953290641/801260453290491/

Та ще один знаменитий GG Чорноморський табір ! Розташований на красивих пляжах Кароліно Бугаз 30 км від Одеси. Ми зберемо на час в Слові, спілкування, повчання, поклоніння , виклик , росту і FUN! - П. Крістіан Мур та інші будуть наші гості в цьому році.

Да еще один знаменитый GG Черноморский лагерь ! Расположенный на красивых пляжах Каролино Бугаз 30 км от Одессы . Мы соберем на время в Слове, общения, назидания , поклонения , вызов, роста и FUN! - П. Кристиан Мур и другие будут наши гости в этом году.

The Place and Outpouring of Prayer

"Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints; And for me, that utterance may be given unto me, that I may open my mouth boldly, to make known the mystery of the gospel." -Ephesians 6:18-19 

"The fountain of prayer and all supplications is sourced in the limitless flow of the Holy Spirit who knows the "deep things of God" - 2 Corinthians 2:10. The Spirit reveals those deep and secret things hidden in the darkness, Daniel 2:22, dark not because some evil or horror dwells there, but dark due to the ignorance of many to its riches. 

Prayer sourced in the Spirit is true worship - John 4:23. It has been weaned from the obstructions of sight and the tantrums of the restless soul. It is prayer that rises above the opaque columnous clouds, above the cyclic rise and fall of the worldly fray, above the frivolous opining of men and far above the frenetic traffic of the "Prince of the Power of the Air". 

When we have entered into the Holiest of Holies, having passed through the outer court of the world and the flesh, passing through the veil by the Cross of Jesus Christ, we discover that meager ability of the soul is too incompetent to comprehend what awaits the believer at the Throne of Grace. Only the prayer whose path was made by our Hero, Jesus Christ the Forerunner, can bring us there. 

That Holiest Place is the altar where the atoning Blood has been applied. There is true freedom from the bonds of the corrupt nature of the flesh and the chainsof theself-consciousnessofthehumansoul. That Holiest Place is the sphere of the Spirit, where we hear the voice of the Word of God speaking to the deepest parts of us, seeing us, knowing us, and counseling us. 

The "Mystery of the Gospel" of which Paul spoke is not an esoteric mystery that cannot be known, it is this very thing - the mystery of knowing the depths of God: His Mind, His Plan, and His Grace. All these await the believer in the Word and in prayer. When we have been alone with Him in prayer and have opened our mouths in prayer, there in secret, we will observe that the Witness of God accompanies us as we preach the Gospel. Prayer sourced in the Spirit always guides us to the Gospel of Christ. Prayer's ultimate heartbeat is to bring the lost sinner into communion with God and his new creation in Christ. 

Prayer without the Gospel is not prayer. Prayer and preaching are married and undivorceable. One cannot be without the other without both ceasing to exist. For when we find ourselves in the midst of His Holiest, time will not tarry long before we hear "Who will go for us?" - Isaiah 6:1-8 

Prayer instills the mystery of a power in us that did not exist there before. It gives us hunger for holiness, missions, service, compassion, and the desire to serve. 

Let our knees be marked with the inscriptions of our floors, let our lips be filled with His Praise, let our souls be stilled in His presence, let our heart burn with the matters of the Lord, and let our minds mull the burdens of the Lord . Let us be those men and women that have the marks of our Savior, that we too may be known as "those that had been with Jesus." For God knows this dying world desperately needs it. 

"There is a place where thou canst touch the eyes Of blinded men to instant, perfect sight;
There is a place where thou canst say, “Arise”
To dying captives, bound in chains of night; There is a place where thou canst reach the store Of hoarded gold and free it for the Lord; 

There is a place–upon some distant shore–Where thou canst send the worker and the Word. Where is that secret place–dost thou ask, “Where?” O soul, it is the secret place of prayer!" ~ Alfred Lord Tennyson

The Genesis of a New Creation

Before we could approach the subject of prayer in this small treatise, we are prompted to evaluate the natural state of every human being, and that being unregenerate, spiritually dead, impotent. A man that has been seeded from the earth, born of the flesh, is therefore flesh. We originally being fleshly and blind to the things that of the Heavenlies, are in need of new “genesis” in the deepest part of ourselves. That “genesis” differs from the Biblical account of the origins of the material world in that it has an entirely different source. “That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.” – John 3:6. This source afore mentioned is rooted in the Heavenlies and shares nothing with the soil we stand on now. The Source from which this comes is from The Spirit of God Himself.
Mankind needs a total rebirth, an absolute rejuvenation that is sourced from that Heavenly sphere from which springs up a new creature. Mankind cannot be remade, remodeled, or refashioned. You and I need a new genesis – a creation that is not made from the materials from ourselves, or this world.
God created this universe not out of mandate but out of love, and because of love God sends His only Son into it to rescue it. Jesus’s love and mission to this world was terminated by the ingratitude and sin of man (and of you and I). Yet it was the Love of the Spirit of God for humankind that raised Jesus from the dead and burst Him from the sullied grave.
Thus we may be reborn by this Love from Above. Anyone that allows the Love of the Spirit of the Father to enter and believe on His Son that He sent, will be a recipient of a supernatural miracle – a rebirth of the Spirit of God. Something or rather better stated; Someone will be born inside that is born from Above, that is sourced from Above, and speaks the language of Above.
!This is the new creation that the Bible speaks so much of. This new creation is born of the Spirit and cannot sin, fail or be destroyed. It is sourced from the Seed of the Gospel of Grace. Just as a new born babe cries out for it’s mother’s breast and her caress, so this new creation hungers and thirsts for God; His Word, His Love and His Communication to the inner most parts of who we are.
This is beginning of prayer.

Quotes from "Fiery Faith" by A.W. Tozer

I've been meditating and digesting A. W. Tozer's book "Fiery Faith" recently and noted for my personal study a series of quotes from his book. I hope you enjoy these and are as blessed as I was reading this spiritually meaty book

• Before there can be any faith there must be enlightenment first - Jn 6.44

• Faith is not abstract and is to be for the immediacy of the physical life - see the words that reflect the physical: "taste & see that The Lord is good" Ps 34.8

• Imagination tries to create - projects unreal images out of the mind and seeks to attach reality to them

• Faith creates nothing but simply reckons on what's already there.

• There is no difference between the spiritual and the real - one does not contradict the other - the spiritual is the real

• Faith is present - living in the present of God - people live in their past with God and they're in the future hope in God and the work but live lonely in the present because they live with out present of God in faith

• Christian rationalists, Christian moralists, vs Christian mystics

• Faith never goes contrary to reason - it just ignores the reasons and rises above it

• The original sin was not disobedience but it was unbelief. Unbelief always proceeds sin

• Faith cannot use tangible worlds like "mountain, star, lake" if it could it
would become pagan. Faith uses words that are intangible "love, forgiveness, promises"

•Unbelief is a moral thing. Living in unbelief is demoralizing because it assumes the immoral condition of the heart before it can exist.

• There are things reason cannot do that are beyond it's capacity, for example - “wonder” - "they all wondered at Him" leads to marveling - faith moved forward supernaturally and reason follows wide-eyed in amazement - this is the way it should always be

• A believing Christian is a miracle - the moment you can explain him he is no longer the wonder of a Christian but a religious idealist or religious philosophist

• Faith must rest on not the promises but on God's nature first or the promises are taken out of context and misapplied - promise follower vs Christ follower

• Ps 116.11 we are brought up in an environment of lies Jer 17.9

• Satan’s first attack upon the human race was his sly efiort to destroy Eve’s confidence in the kindness of God. Unfortunately for her and for us he succeeded too well. From that day, men have had a false conception of God, and it is exactly this that has cut out from under them the ground of righteousness and driven them to reckless and destructive living.

• Much Christianity since the days of Christ’s flesh has also been grim and severe. And the cause has been the same - an unworthy or an inadequate view of God. Instinctively we try to be like our God, and if He is conceived to be stern and exacting, so will we ourselves be.

• They continued stedfastly in the apostles’ doctrine and fellowship, and in breaking of bread, and in prayers. (Acts 2:42) So says Luke of the thousands who received the Word and were baptized following the preaching of Peter on the day of Pentecost. Conversion for those first Christians was not a destination; it was the beginning of a journey

• Came the revolution, quietly, certainly, and put another construction upon the word faith. Little by little the whole meaning of the word shifted from what it had been to what it is now. And so insidious was the change that hardly a voice has been raised to warn against it. But the tragic consequences are all around us. Faith now means no more than passive moral acquiescence in the Word of God and the cross of Jesus.


• Such a faith as this does not perturb people. It comforts them. It does not put their hip out of joint so that they halt upon their thigh; rather it teaches them deep-breathing exercises and improves their posture. The face of their ego is washed and their self-confidense is rescued from discouragement. All this they gain, but they do not get a new name as Jacob did, nor do they limp into the eternal sunlight. “As he passed over Penuel..." Limping Gen 32.31 

The Calling Prayer of AW Tozer

So stirred this evening late as I read this prayer of AW Tozer when he was ordained. After the elders and ministers laid hands upon him and prayed, Tozer withdrew and composed the following as a declaration and prayer to his Lord and King. 

"O Lord, I have heard Thy voice and was afraid. Thou has called me to an awesome task in a grave and perilous hour. Thou art about to shake all nations and the earth and also heaven, that the things that cannot be shaken may remain. O Lord, our Lord, Thou hast stopped to honor me to be Thy servant. No man taketh this honor upon himself save he that is called of God as was Aaron. Thou has ordained me Thy messenger to them that are stubborn of heart and heard of hearing. They have rejected Thee, the Master, and it is not to be expected that they will receive me, the servant.

My God, I shall not waste time deploring my weakness nor my unfittedness for the work. The responsibility is not mine, but thine. Thou has said, “I knew thee – I ordained thee – I sanctified thee,” and Thou hast also said, “Thou shalt go to all that I shall send thee, and whatsoever I command all that I shalt speak.” Who am I to argue with Thee or to call into question Thy sovereign choice? The decision is not mine, but Thine. So be it, Lord. Thy will, not mine, be done.

Well do I know, Thou God of the prophets and the apostles, that as long as I honor Thee Thou wilt honor me. Help me therefore to take this solemn vow to honor Thee in all my future life and labors, whether by gain or by loss, by life or by death, and then to keep that vow unbroken while I live.

It is time, O God, for Thee to work, for the enemy has entered into Thy pastures and the sheep are torn and scattered. And false shepherds abound who deny the danger and laugh at the perils which surround Thy flock. The sheep are deceived by these hirelings and follow them with touching loyalty while the wolf closes in to kill and destroy. I beseech Thee, give me sharp eyes to detect the presence of the enemy; give me understanding to distinguish the false friend from the true. Give me vision to see and courage to report what I see faithfully. Make my voice so like Thine own that even the sick sheep will recognize it and follow Thee.

Lord Jesus, I come to Thee for spiritual preparation. Lay Thy hand upon me. Anoint me with the oil of the New Testament prophet. Forbid that I should become a religious scribe and thus lose my prophetic calling. Save me from the curse that lies dark across the face of the modern clergy, the curse of compromise, of imitation, of professionalism. Save me from the error of judging a church by its size, its popularity or the amount of its yearly offering. Help me to remember that I am a prophet; not a promoter, not a religious manager – but a prophet. Let me never become a slave to crowds. Heal my soul of carnal ambitions and deliver me from the itch of publicity.

Save me from bondage to things. Let me not waste my days puttering around the house. Lay Thy terror upon me, O God, and drive me to the place of prayer where I may wrestle with principalities and powers and the rulers of the darkness of this world. Deliver me from overeating and late sleeping. Teach me self-discipline that I may be a good soldier of Jesus Christ.

I accept hard work and small rewards in this life. I ask for no easy place. I shall try to be blind to the little ways that could make my life easier. If others seek the smoother path I shall try to take the hard way without judging them too harshly. I shall expect opposition and try to take it quietly when it comes. Or if, as sometimes it falleth out to Thy servants, I should have grateful gifts pressed upon me by Thy kindly people, stand by me then and save me from the blight that often follows. Teach me to use whatever I receive in such manner that it will not injure my soul nor diminish my spiritual power. And if in Thy permissive providence honor should come to me from Thy church, let me not forget in that hour that I am unworthy of the least of Thy mercies, and that if men knew me as intimately as I know myself they would withhold their honors or bestow them upon others more worthy to receive them.

And now, O Lord of heaven and earth, I consecrate my remaining days to Thee; let them be many or few, as Thou wilt. Let me stand before the great or minister to the poor and lowly; that choice is not mine, and I would not influence it if I could. I am Thy servant to do Thy will, and that will is sweeter to me than position or riches or fame and I choose it above all things on earth or in heaven.

Though I am chosen of Thee and honored by a high and holy calling, let me never forget that I am but a man of dust and ashes, a man with all the natural faults and passions that plague the race of men. I pray Thee, therefore, my Lord and Redeemer, save me from myself and from all the injuries I may do myself while trying to be a blessing to others. Fill me with Thy power by the Holy Spirit, and I will go in Thy strength and tell of Thy righteousness, even Thine only. I will spread abroad the message of redeeming love while my normal powers endure.

Then, dear Lord, when I am old and weary and too tired to go on, have a place ready for me above and make me to be numbered with Thy saints in glory everlasting. Amen."

*(Taken from A.W. Tozer, as quoted in America is Too Young To Die: A Call to Revival, by Leonard Ravenhill. Originally published in The Alliance Witness.)

Baptized in the Calling

Here's a nugget I read to this morning by CHS:

Psalm 42:7

The human spirit functions in God-consciousness, the Father. The human soul functions in the power of the Spirit, the Son. The human body functions in the power of the Word, the epistle. The Father gives us His thoughts to make us God-conscious. The Son gives us the power of redemption over self in the soul. The Word gives us life and direction in the path of light for the Body.

Is it better to burn for The Lord or to obey?


Luke 22.33

Many are those that may burn in passionate love for The Lord who sing his praises and cannot be straightened in their zeal for him confessing their fiery love for Him. Yet when it comes to that lonely step of faith of obedience that is met with the icy cold wind of resistance they halt and step back secretly in their heart all the while confessing His Name and His Word.

There are times when the Fire burns in our bosom and we cannot stay but speak and move. But that is the rare blessed exception. To live in awareness of that Flame and it's purifying work is to quench it. To focus on the Flame and not the Still Small Voice of The Word inside of it is to get distracted and be turned aside to the emotion and phenomenon of the Fire & not the command. Though the Burning Flame in the heart of the quickened saint may be a new experience - the Cross must have its deep crucifying affect and separate the emotional feeling of the soul from the burning sensation of the Spirit.

The "ministers of fire" described in Hebrews 1.7 are servants that are aflame but often feel very little as they take faith steps of obedience in great weakness. It is in this great weakness where the soul feeling is divided from the spirit that God is glorified the most and His power is revealed - otherwise if the servant serves in the awareness of the Powerful Burning he is strong in his soulish feeling and weak in his spirit to obedience. We follow, we obey for the utmost of reasons, because of Truth - that is living by "Every Word"

“In Awe of the Exalted” - יִרְאַת הָרוֹמְמוּת - Understanding the Fear of the Lord

“And now, Israel, what does the LORD your God require of you, but to fear
the LORD your God, to walk in all his ways, to love him, to serve the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul" (Deut. 10:12)

The word translated “fear" in many versions of the Bible comes from the Hebrew word yirah (יִרְאָה), which has a wide range of meaning in the Scriptures. Sometimes it refers to the fear we feel in anticipation of some danger or pain, but it can also can mean “awe” or “reverence” inclusive of the idea of wonder, amazement, mystery, astonishment, gratitude, admiration, and worship (like the feeling you get when gazing from the edge of the Grand Canyon). Thus at times yirah ought to be translated as “awe" -  "The awe of God is the beginning of wisdom" (Psalm 111:10)

Some Hebrew Biblical scholars link the word yirah (יִרְאָה) with the word for seeing (רָאָה). Exod. 3:2-5 Moses “turned aside” to see the wonder and awe of the burning bush. When he saw the bush and heard the Voice he trembled with awe and the inner awareness of the sanctity of the Lord and His Calling. Such awe is not the goal of wisdom (like some state of nirvana), but rather its means. We start with awe and that leads us to wisdom - (Heschel). This wisdom ultimately is revealed in the love of God as demonstrated in the sacrificial death of His Son and his resurrection for our justification.

According to Jewish tradition, there are three “levels” or types of yirah:
  1. The tormenting fear of unpleasant consequences or punishment (i.e., yirat ha’onesh: יִרְאַת הָענֶשׁWe anticipate pain of some kind and want to run from it. Note that such fear can also come from what you subjectively believe others might think of you. People will often do things (or not do them) in order to buy acceptance within a group (or to avoid rejection). Social rules are adhered to in order to avoid being alienated or rejected.  One application of this type of fear is as Plato said in his writing "Republic", that people are "too weak to do injustice with impunity". A provoking question that could help us understand if you act or do not act under this type of fear is - would you act differently if you were able to become invisible? Would the "freedom to do whatever you like with impunity" lead you to consider doing things you otherwise wouldn't do? 
  2. The type of fear concerns anxiety over breaking God’s laws (sometimes called yirat ha-malkhut: יִרְאַת הַמַּלְכוּת). This kind of fear drives people to do good deeds because they fear God will punish them in this life (or in the world to come). Even though the fear of God's punishment may deter us from sin and wrong doing in the short run, by itself it is deficient of spiritual life, since it is based on an deficient idea about God. This is the foundational concept of karma (the cycle of moral cause and effect). This kind of fear is founded on self-preservation, though in some cases the heart's motivation may be mixed with a genuine desire to honor God or to avoid God's righteous wrath for sin (Exod. 1:12Lev. 19:14; Matt. 10:28; Luke 12:5). 
  3. The third (and highest) kind of fear is a profound reverence for God that comes from rightly seeing. This level discerns the Presence of God in every detail of our life and is sometimes called yirat ha-rommemnut (יִרְאַת הָרוֹמְמוּת), or the "Awe of the Exalted."  Through it we behold God's glory and majesty in all things. "Fearing" (יִרְאָה) and "seeing" (רָאָה) are linked and united. Thus "the pure in heart shall see God". We are elevated to the high road of reverent discernment, sacred affection, and genuine communion with God's Holy Spirit.  This love for divine good creates a spiritual distaste toward evil, and thus, the hatred of evil to fear God
"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well- balanced mind and discipline and self- control." - 2 Timothy 1:7amp

The Paradox of His Strength made perfect in our Weakness

Thinking tonight of the great paradox and mystery of the Anointing.  David the shepherd not having the crown but was anointed king yet in great straits of weakness - 2 Sam 3:39a. Elijah, a mighty man of God - the "Prophet of Fire" was "subject (homoiopathḗs) to like passions as we are" - meaning he was liable to be affected by the same thing any human being is. Yet he prayed. Paul though weak with the thorn afflicting him served in the power of his spirit - Rom 1.9 because God's Grace sustained him. Jesus Himself was crucified in weakness yet lives by the power of God...Oh what a paradox! We do not grow stronger everyday with God, but rather as the years pass we grow weaker and weaker - more and more dependent on God, His Grace and His Word to bring us to the end of The Race with joy. "For though he was crucified through weakness, yet he liveth by the power of God. For we also are weak in him, but we shall live with him by the power of God toward you" 2 Cor 13.4 - Thus the power of the Anointing may be of Him and not of ourselves. Otherwise we have no affective ministry to others.

Eurocon 2014 Mission March

What an incredible time we all had at a record breaking attended EuroCon 2014 in Budapest! It was a powerful time in the Word, fellowship and miracles. We were able to see 40+ Ukrainians attend by nothing short of a miracle with all that's happening in Ukraine now. Here is a video p. Maciek from Poland made of the Missions March. Enjoy!

Inner Healing - Some thoughts on a Damaged Soul

Recently observing a dear person I began praying for their "soul situation" and asked God for insight to help. Here are a few musing on the subject which are not by any-means exhaustive but something that I'd like to study more preach about this month of February.

Isaiah 1.6 - From the sole of the foot even unto the head there is no soundness in it [the soul]; but wounds, and bruises, and putrifying sores: they have not been closed, neither bound up, neither mollified with ointment. - (brackets mine)

It’s unimaginable the pain and suffering people have experienced in their lives because they were victims of prevalent evil in this world. The depth of the damage that has been caused deep in people’s souls can be described in Proverbs 18.8 as "wounds that go down into the innermost parts of the emotions (belly)”. This injury hurts and causes the most destruction to the innocent soul when it is caused by people we love in circles of trust and safety. The greater question though is how the damaged goods are healed rather than the wallowing in the pool of the injustice that is done; which can be so consoling and oddly satisfying. Because of the  "wounds that go down into the innermost parts of the emotion” are not healed than the following verse applies in verse 9 - passivity and paralysis comes into dominate the hurting soul and the "Waster of Souls” wins.

When there is no “mollification” - no healing ointment then what substitutes the healing is protectiveness and an underlying drive in some cases to lash out or campaign against the injustice done to them. This reaction continues to grow and fester in Isaiah 1.6 resulting in an inner motive that affects all other parts of a person’s soul. It may even manifest itself in a religious endeavor or a self-justifying cause looking to others for support in their self-righteous movement.

The true problem is they need desperately to be understood in their suffering and they want to be heard - someone to feel their pain with them though they may fiercely refuse it because of an advanced state of bitterness. We know that there is only One who has suffered untold loads of pain and suffering and that is mankind’s Savior Jesus. When the Spirit of Jesus and the Words of His comfort are allowed deep into the injured part of our soul via identification, compassion and understanding, then inner healing and “mollification” begins and the damaged soul can heal to become a very effective person in ministering to others. At that point a vision can come into the once paralyzed soul and a capacity of faith can enable with the motive of God’s Love. 

People cannot self-heal. The self-healing is a substitute for true healing. What is needed is to allow the process of the Spirit of Comfort and the Word of His Healing to be allowed to go deep and recreate the ruins of the soul and make a person a brand-new creation. They need to enter into a Body of Believers that are Christ-centered, Finished-Work thinkers that create an environment of love, faith and safety where they as Lazarus can slowly have the death-bandages taken off that still linger binding them though they have been spiritually resurrected from the dead.

7 Characteristics of Servanthood


Today while my wife and I visited p. Maciek and Renata with their beatuiful church, I preached on the subject of Servanthood. Here below are the notes from the message that you can listen to here: http://bit.ly/19Kw437

John 12:25-26 He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal. If any man serve me, let him follow me; and where I am, there shall also my servant be:if any man serve me, him will my Father honor.

Jn 13.12-17 "So after he had washed their feet, and had taken his garments, and was set down again, he said unto them, Know ye what I have done to you? Ye call me Master and Lord:and ye say well; for so I am. If I then, your Lord and Master, have washed your feet; ye also ought to wash one another’s feet. For I have given you an example, that ye should do as I have done to you. Verily, verily, I say unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord; neither he that is sent greater than he that sent him. If ye know these things, happy are ye if ye do them. 

1. A Servant is powerful:
  • One of the most powerful thing in this universe is life of a servant. One of the weakest things on this earth is the life of a servant. 
  • No one gets the amount of things done in the simplicity and the focus that a servant has. For there is no flesh to complicate matters, relationships, or vision. 
2. A Servant appears mundane: 
  • "In some ways we would prefer to hear Jesus' call to deny father and mother, houses and land for the sake of the gospel than his word to wash feet. Radical self-denial gives the feel of adventure. If we forsake all, we even have the chance at glorious martyrdom"
  • "But in service we must experience the many little deaths of going beyond ourselves. Service banishes us to the mundane, the ordinary, the trivial.”
  • Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God. Eph 5.21 
3. A Servant is not in control:
  • "It is one thing to go on the lonely way with dignified heroism, but quite another thing if the line mapped out for you by God means being a door-mat under other people's feet.
  • Mother Teresa: "I belong to Jesus. He must have the right to use me without consulting me.
4. A Servant choses to be a servant rather than choosing to serve
  • When we chose to serve we are in charge. When we chose to be a servant we give up the right to be in charge. This is great freedom. If we chose to be a servant then we cannot be manipulated. When we chose to be a servant we surrender the right to decide when and where we will serve. That is availability and vulnerability. 
  • There is a natural hesitancy that comes with any serious discussion of serving. Because there is a hesitancy in understanding the cost before jumping in. The fear is that people will take advantage of us
  • Self-righteous service picks and choses whom to serve. "Sometimes the low and defenseless are served because that will ensure a humble image. True service is indiscriminate in its ministry. It has heard the command of Jesus.
5. A Servant has lost his rights because of love
  • The perspective of a slave. A slave sees all of life from the viewpoint of slavery. He does not see himself as possessing the same rights as free men and women. When this slavery is involuntary it is cruel and dehumanizing. When the slavery is freely chosen, however, everything is changed. Voluntary servitude is a great joy.
  • “Bond slave” - a slave that has chosen to be a slave - not to serve. Paul is an example of this: "Yea, and if I be offered upon the sacrifice and service of your faith, I joy, and rejoice with you all.” - Phil 2.17
6. A Servant is not bound to himself in self-love
  • "But none of these things move me, neither count I my life dear unto myself, so that I might finish my course with joy, and the ministry, which I have received of the Lord Jesus, to testify the gospel of the grace of God." - Acts 20.24 
  • Nothing crucifies the flesh like serving, nothing transforms the desires of the flesh like serving in hiddenness. The flesh screams for attention and will devise subtle, religious attention to the service rendered.  
7. A Servant serves giving all though the result may be small.
  • There is no demand for great results because it is an anointing upon the servant. 
  • Luke 4.18 - The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised
  • Luke 22.27 - For whether is greater, he that sitteth at meat, or he that serveth? is not he that sitteth at meat? but I am among you as he that serveth. 
  • Luke 6.40 The disciple is not above his master: but every one that is perfect shall be as his master. 

The Humility of Jesus Portrayed on Christmas

Here are some draft notes from our message today on the Humility of Christ on Christmas - you can here the sermon here: http://bit.ly/1d23fhg

2 Cor 8.9 - For ye know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that, though he was rich, yet for your sakes he became poor, that ye through his poverty might be rich.

One of the greatest beauties of Christ was His humility. It was the most attractable thing about Him. He was always attracting humble people around Him and making proud people angry.

Luke 2.7-20
And she brought forth her firstborn son, and wrapped him in swaddling clothes, and laid him in a manger; because there was no room for them in the inn.
And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night.
And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them:and they were sore afraid.
And the angel said unto them, Fear not:for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people.
For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, which is Christ the Lord.
And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger.
And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying,
Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.
And it came to pass, as the angels were gone away from them into heaven, the shepherds said one to another, Let us now go even unto Bethlehem, and see this thing which is come to pass, which the Lord hath made known unto us.
And they came with haste, and found -- Mary, and Joseph, and the babe lying in a manger.
And when they had seen it, they made known abroad the saying which was told them concerning this child.
And all they that heard it wondered at those things which were told them by the shepherds.
But Mary kept all these things, and pondered them in her heart.
And the shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things that they had heard and seen, as it was told unto them.  
  • Psalm 113:4-6 - The Lord is high above all nations, and his glory above the heavens. Who is like unto the Lord our God, who dwelleth on high, Who humbleth himself to behold the things that are in heaven, and in the earth!
  • "Think about that for a moment. God humbles Himself. God condescends to look at, to behold the things that are in the heavens. God has to stoop down to look at what’s in heaven. We have to look up to see what’s in heaven. God has to look down to see the things that are in the heavens. The angels—they are lower than God. God stoops down. He humbles Himself to look at the things in heaven.”
  • Not only did He have to stoop down to even look at us but it is His amazing Grace that He even is mindful of man - Ps 8.3-4
  • The Love of God in Jogn 3.16 caused Him to do 7 things
    • So God doesn’t just look at us, He gets involved with us.
    • He humbles Himself.
    • He condescends.
    • He stoops down to think of us.
    • He is mindful of us.
    • He stoops down to care for us.
    • He became one of us
  • Christmas is about the greatest theological facts - The incarnation, God being born in the likeness of sinful flesh - Rom 8.3 - the uttermost display of humility. This is what made him guilty, not because of an inherited sin nature but because he associated with us. 
  • Heaven and earth cannot contain God but He became confined to a human body. 
  • 2 Chron 2.6 But who is able to build him a house, seeing the heaven and heaven of heavens cannot contain him. 
  • Heb 2.7 He became man made a little lower than the angels submitted himself in a human body to God.
  • The devil underestimated God’s humility - underestimated how far God would go.
  • We are never more like Jesus than when we humble ourselves and surrender to the plan of God
  • He was circumcised on the 8th day. Not because He was a sinner, He was sinless, He submitted to the Law of Moses to fulfill it. His first pain and suffering for us.

Father Damien was a Belgian priest in the 1800s who went to a village on the island of Molokai in Hawaii, a village that had been quarantined as a leper colony. For 16 years, Father Damien lived with these people that no one else wanted to have anything to do with. He learned their language. He served them. He built homes for them. He organized schools and choirs. Rather than being careful to keep His distance from the lepers as most would have done, He got right up next to them. He bandaged their wounds. He ate with his patients, sometimes out of the same dish. He touched people that others considered untouchable. Gradually, throughout the course of his years of serving there, that village was transformed. Despair was replaced with hope. Yet for years he was still different in one very important point. They were lepers, and he was not. Then one day he stood up before his congregation and he began his sermon with two words. “We lepers,” for he had contracted leprosy while living among the people. From that moment on people in that village saw this servant in a whole different light. Now he wasn’t just living among them. He wasn’t just serving them. He had actually become one of them. Not only would he share their life, now he would die as they died.

On Christmas we celebrate the day that God came to our village. He didn’t just come to help us. He began His message by saying "we lepers." We sinners. He had become one of us. He took on our sin. 

Puerto Rico Mission Trip Getaway 2013


This week my wife and I went on a mission trip getaway to Puerto Rico where we met up with a team from Baltimore; p. Kevin Cooper, James Bryson, & Ian. There we visited p. David in Aguadilla, and his church. The Body there is a very joyous church with an outreach vision for their city. P. David met Greater Grace through p. Foster who led him to Christ while he was a missionary in Puerto Rico. While in Puerto Rico we did outreach in Mayaguez & other coastal towns. I was able to take a mountain bike trip up into the rain forest of El Yunque and do some evangelism for the people that lived up there. Precious people!


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Intimacy & Vulnerability in Prayer before God

Here are some abbreviated draft notes on a message we preached on "PRAYER - Wisdom that comes from Vulnerability"

Here the message here: http://bit.ly/12AZwlH

"A servant will not be corrected by words: for though he understand he will not answer." - Prov 29.19. There is a lot of ignorance due to the lack of prayer. 

When we sing, 'Draw me nearer, nearer, blessed Lord,' we are not thinking of the nearness of place, but of the nearness of relationship. It is for increasing degrees of awareness that we pray, for a more perfect consciousness of the divine Presence. We need never shout across the spaces to an absent God. He is nearer than our own soul, closer than our most secret thoughts." --A.W. Tozer 

"I call you not servants; for the servant knoweth not what his lord doeth: but I have called you friends; for all things that I have heard of my Father I have made known unto you." - Jn 15:15.

Information age of technology - automation and machination that causes isolation and entertainment vs prayer that creates reverence and participlation. Technology can create a culturally obese society because of the availability, ease of use, convenience, and affordability of technology. 

Intimacy in prayer repels the demand that God answer all our why's to satisfy our mental lust for inforamtion. We trust Him for those things that He has allwoed in our lives without having to ask Him why. We quielty bow before Him in worship.

Those whom God should use mightily He wounds deeply. "What are these wounds in thine hands?" Then he shall answer, "Those with which I was wounded in the house of my friends." Zech 13:6. Take Jacob for example. Wrestles with God comes out with a limp.

It can be that we hide in what we do for God as Adam hid among the leaves that he was to be the caretaker of - 1 Sam 10:22 Saul hid among the stuff that he was to be ruling over. "I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go: I will guide thee with mine eye. Be ye not as the horse, or as the mule, which have no understanding: whose mouth must be held in with bit and bridle, lest they come near unto thee."- Ps 32:8-9

“Honesty and transparency make you vulnerable. Be honest and transparent anyway.” - Mother Theresa

When we sing, 'Draw me nearer, nearer, blessed Lord,' we are not thinking of the nearness of place, but of the nearness of relationship. It is for increasing degrees of awareness that we pray, for a more perfect consciousness of the divine Presence. We need never shout across the spaces to an absent God. He is nearer than our own soul, closer than our most secret thoughts." --A.W. Tozer 

Transparency leads to authenticity in our prayer life with God. Our communion with God is a two way communication whereas shallow religious prayers are just a monologue to God no different that the pagan prayers of the lost. Authenticity is what we all long for in our Spiritual Vertical with God because it is the only satisfying element in our lives - communion with God. Where we are not afraid of God deeply seeing and knowing us through and through as he did with Abraham. Abraham was the Friend of God and his relationship was authentic as we see in Genesis 18.17 "And the Lord said, Shall I hide from Abraham that thing which I do?" Abraham was transparent before God resulting in experiencing the Secrets of God in His Plan. 

That is authenticity and it costs us our cover. Surrender your fig leaves that only last a season and surrender to the All Seeing Compassion of God

Grace sets the stage for Love to come in and create a safe zone where transparency is no longer a threat and vulnerability becomes voluntarily. Where there is no transparency there can be no authenticity and our relationship with God is not genuine and is intimacy with God is replaced with activity for God. Servant Master relationship.

David Brainerd's last journal entries - Missionary to the American Indians

Reading these last entries recently stirred me. This journal was used by God to inspire many modern day missionaries from the 1700's on till today.

Wednesday, Sept. 23. 1747
I finished my corrections of the little piece before mentioned, and felt uncommonly peaceful; it seemed as if I had now done all my work in this world, and stood ready for my call to a better. As long as I see any thing to be done for God, life is worth having: but oh, how vain and unworthy it is, to live for any lower end! ---- This day I indited a letter, I think, of  great importance, to the Reverend Mr. Byram in New Jersey. Oh that God would bless and succeed that letter, which was written for the benefit of his church! Oh that God would  purify the sons of Levi, that his glory may be advanced! ---- This night I endured a dreadful turn, wherein my life was expected scarce an hour or minute together. But blessed be God, I have enjoyed considerable sweetness in divine things this week, both by night and day.

His last entry: Friday, Oct. 2. 1747
My soul was this day, at turns, sweetly set on God: I longed to be with him, that I might behold his glory. I felt sweetly disposed to commit all to him, even my dearest friends, my dearest flock, my absent brother, and all my concerns for time and eternity. Oh that his kingdom might come in the world; that they might all love and glorify him, for what he is in himself; and that the blessed Redeemer might see the travail of his soul, and be satisfied! 'Oh come, Lord Jesus, come quickly! Amen.'

When I Survey the Wonderous Cross

I woke up this morning with this old hymn by Isaac Watts stirring my heart. It tells the story that we are not our own but that we were bought with a costly price, His Blood...

"When I survey the wondrous cross
On which the Prince of Glory died
My richest gain I count but loss
And pour contempt on all my pride

Forbid it Lord that I should boast
Save in the death of Christ my God
All the vain things that charm me most
I sacrificed them to His blood

See from His head His hands His feet
Sorrow and love flow mingled down
Did ere such love and sorrow meet
Or thorns compose so rich a crown

Were the whole realm of nature mine
That were a present far too small
Love so amazing so divine"
Demands my soul my life my all

- Isaac Watts

Anointed for Sweet Exhaustion



If you cannot see the slides click here: http://bit.ly/ppCEwn

P. Vladimir Teplov and I sat in his Moscow apartment for a few minutes too exhausted to speak. We looked at each other and just smiled.

"How was the conference in Helsinki?"
"Oh" he said with his tired but purposeful Russian accent,
"It was a-mazing". Rubbing his eyes he struggled to utter a few choice quotes from p.Love. Then in the middle of his sentence he stopped, turned with sleepy eyes smiled again and said "let's pr-ray".

I had just arrived an hour ago to St. Petersburg by early morning (2am) plane from Tyumen, Siberia where sleep was what we did when we weren't preaching, praying or fellowshipping and eating pelmeni. P. Vladimir had just moments ago walked in the door from a sleepless night in a mini-bus from Helsinki to St.Pete followed by a long train ride to Moscow.

We prayed briefly then I got up with my bags and went out the door - I was off on a 28 hour trek back to Baltimore by plane, train, and metro. As I walked out onto the sidewalk he opened a window and shouted to me from the second floor;

"Hey pastor Chris!" looking up a him he just shook his head, laughed and closed the window.

We were beyond beat.

July 4-7 we met up with all the Russian pastors and many of the Russian believers in St. Petersburg and had a conference continuing the topic of Convention- "Anointed for Service"

By the next day I was two time zones away in Siberia at a missions conference with p. Pavel Gailans. Each night we had about 70 in attendance. Damir and Natavan from Baku came and blessed us with their joyful portion and Lezginka dances (see below the video). New team members have joined the team in Tyumen and God is adding new people to the church. It's a Siberian Spring there.

I think one of the highlights was sitting in the thick Siberian Woods with a boisterous happy group of young Russian eager men singing, eating pork chops, onions, cucumbers and dry bread with our hands talking about Luke 17.21.

Today is Monday July 11th, and as I write this blog entry I am hurling towards the Finnish border at 220 km/hr in a high speed Russian train. I am stirred in my heart with a fresh vision for Russia; Novosibirsk, Volvograd, Vladivastok, Tobolsk, Stavropol, and Kazan.

Let's burn for Him!

Here Damir and his wife Natavan dance the traditional Lezgi "Knife Dance" after a rap one night:


Here Arkhad and Damir do another Lezgi Dance for us: